sometimes my self loathing gets the better of me. i’ve not been to the gym in almost two weeks. i’ve had fat fast food more times in that two weeks than i care to say. i’ve had way too much to drink in those two weeks. i feel that i’ve let myself go to the point where it doesn’t even matter anymore.
that’s negative thinking.
today i will not be fat. today i will go to the gym. today i will buy groceries so i’m not tempted to eat fat food. today, i will not be fat.
i weighed in at 205 today. so i guess i’m a little depressed and i’m apparently taking it out on this big ass pot of alfredo i made for lunch.
and i had some cheesecake at work. i didn’t want it. but norma was giving away free cheesecake.
really. i have been a fat, lazy peice of crap the last two weeks.
been to the y only once. lots of fast food. too many, way too many beers.
i suck.
but hey, it’s okay. one day at a time kids, one day at a time. today was bad. i’ll try better tomorrow.
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