baby steps.

so i’ve said this before but living a healthy lifestyle is a lifestyle choice.  you have to make the decision everyday to be healthy.  you have to decide everyday to don’t be fat.  and sometimes we succeed and sometimes we don’t.  sometimes we sneak a double cheeseburger from steak and shake and some days we opt for a fruit smoothie instead.

the key is to not get upset with yourself for slipping up and try to get a little better everyday.  good habits are hard to make but easy to break.  i was really, really good for almost a year.  i dropped 50 pounds in just about 8 months.  i was going to the gym everyday.  i had a specific work out routine and a specific diet i was living by.  but just like that, it’s a year and half later and i’ve gained back half of the 50 and it’s like pulling teeth to get myself to the gym.  and it’s oh so easy to stop at the steak and shake at 2 in the morning when i’m getting off work.

but it’s just a matter of baby steps.  i’ve got to slowly work my way back into the good habits of going to the gym and eating right.  and that’s what i’m doing today.  i’ve been to the Y three days i a row.  today will make four.  i need to do that another three weeks in a row then it might be a habit.  now, i’ve not been doing a strenous excercise routine or anything yet.  i’ve just been concentrating on getting back in the gym.  i’ve been playing basketball and riding the excercise bike.  but i’ve been going.

that’s a baby step.  next week i’ll start working on a specific work out.

i’m also eating better today.  i work at a movie theater.  and with that comes some jacked up hours.  and it’s real easy just to eat there.  and there’s nothing good for you at a movie theater, i’ll tell ya that.  the popcorn is okay but you can only eat so much popcorn before you start having nightmares about giant popcorn kernals chasing you.  then it’s easy to go get something fast when you get hungry.  and there’s very little fast that’s good for you either.  in fact, that’s one of the first baby steps you need to take when you decide to don’t be fat.  no fast food.  and anything that’s halfway healthy is expesive as hell.  so today, i’ve fixed some chicken and rice for lunch and i made enough to take to work and eat on all night.

baby steps.

fat ass slip up.

i didn’t repeat moon bloodgood to myself last night after leaving my early screening of night at the museum 2.  i shoulda.  but i didn’t.  i stopped at the steak and shake.  why’s that place gotta be 24 hours?  for fat asses like me.  that’s why.

but oh well.  that happens.  i have made it to the gym three days in a row.  that’s an accomplishment.  and i’ve done pretty good on most of my meals.  my fruit smoothies and lots of cottage cheese and peaches.  i’m munching on some cottage cheese and mixed fruit right now.  yummy.  or course it’s not double cheese burger and cheese fries from steak and shake.  but it’s much less fat.

i did also have some chinese food yesterday.  but i figure that’s not so bad.  it’s mostly rice and veggies, right.  oh, and i did  have a fat mocha chai frozen yummy drink.  but that’s okay too.  so long as i don’t have them everyday and keep myself away from the steak and shake.

don’t be fat.

moon bloodgood, moon bloodgood

so yeah, she’s on the cover of this months maxim magazine.  and she makes me want to work out.  i just need to keep repeating her name to myself over and over as i ride on the exercise bike.  moon bloodgood, moon bloodgood.  she is out of this world.  dang.

so yesterday was a pretty good one for me.  and inspired by moon bloodgood i’m headed to the Y shortly.  gotta wait on the freaking TV guy to come fix the tube.

last night i was able to screen terminator salvation.  that’s what’s got me thinking about moon bloodgood.  that and her image on the cover of maxim.  at the movie some of my co-workers that also screened the film were eating some crap.  like taco bell and white castle crap.  and boy did it smell wonderful.  i really wanted some.  when the movie was over i drove right past steak and shake.  it’s 24 hours ya know.  and i really wanted to stop. 

but i didn’t.  i kept repeating moon bloodgood, moon bloodgood to myself.  and yeah, i’m shallow and vain and all that.  what of it?  i’m too pretty to be this fat.  and i really dig sexy thin women.  and if expect them to be sexy and thin, i reckon i oughta be too.  it’s all about confidence.  and when you look good and feel good.  it’s easy to be confident with yourself and that makes it easier to score sexy bitches like moon bloodgood.  that’s all i’m saying.

gonna have my full on breakfast again today.  with the eggs, ham and multigrain toast.  just so long as the gym comes calling.  then i’ll have a smoothie for lunch or maybe some grilled chicken and rice.  i do love chicken and rice.  it’s so yummy and it’s kinda good for ya.  beats the hell out of white castle.  mmm…white castle…

sorry.  moon bloodgood, moon bloodgood.

215.

what a freaking fat ass.  i busted my ass for like a year or so and went from 240 to 190.  i looked good.  i felt good.  and goll darnit, i was good.  but just like i always do, i gave up on myself and let myself start eating crap food.  i stopped going to the gym.  i ate late and fat.  i suck at life.

but alas, each day dawns the hope of a better one than the last.  today i woke up and fixed myself a kick ass breakfast.  fried some ham and eggs, toasted some multi grain bread, put some cheese on it with some miracle whip and went to town.  not exactly what you’d call a health nut breakfast but in my opinion and in the opinion of many experts i’ve read, breakfast is indeed the most important meal of the day.  might as well kick the day off right.  and i love eggs and ham.  so there ya go.

i did go to the gym today.  and since today is monday, it’s a good day to try and start some good habits over again.  i just played ball but it’s important just to get back in there.  baby steps, as i always say.

so i went and played some ball.  worked up a pretty good sweat and on the way home stopped at the local grocer and picked up some items to begin anew on my commitment to not be fat.  bought some strawberries, bananas, vanilla yogurt, cottage cheese and some peaches in a jar.  it cost me 15 bucks.  which ain’t bad considering i got enough to do me four or five meals.  and by meals i mean smoothies.

what i do is replace at least one meal a day with a smoothie.  strawberry and banana is my fav but you can do whatever you like.  pretty much any kind of berry is good mixed with any kind of fruit.  ain’t nobody ever got fat eating fruit.  except the tongans.  but they also eat whole pigs.

anyway, for lunch today i’m having a fruit smoothie.  it consist of ice, four or five strawberries, a banana, a couple spoonfuls of vanilla yogurt and a scoop of chocolate whey protien.  i already had the protien otherwise my grocery bill would have been double.  that stuff ain’t exactly cheap.  but it last a while.  i put all that stuff in a blender and bam!  a healthy meal replacement.  it’s delicious and filling.

for dinner tonight i’m thinking of some grilled chicken and rice.  or maybe just some cereal and yogurt.  but no fast food or soda pop and i’ll be off to a good start. 

215.  i’m too good looking to be this fat.