alright, here’s a tip for ya

quit your job.  if you ain’t gotta go to work, you got plenty of time to go to the ymca.  no excuses.

well, don’t quit your job.  unless you want to.  i didn’t quit my job, we just ain’t got no work this week.  and that sucks because i could really use the money.  but this does free up time where i can get back in the habit of going to the gym every day. 

and going to the gym makes it easier to eat right.  if you are just leaving the gym and it’s time for lunch, you ain’t gonna blow it all by going and getting fast food.  or you might.  but then you suck. 

so leaving the gym today, i stopped at the kroger and picked up fixin’s for lunch today and breakfast tomorrow.  lunch today was chicken stir fry.  and it was pretty good, actually.  i cubed some chicken and stir fried it in the wok for a few minutes then i dumped some frozen stir fry veggies on top of it.  mmm…stir fry.

i need a bigger wok though, i didn’t have room for the rice.  i fixed some wild rice and just had to put in all together when i ate it.  i also put some of those kick ass crushed oriental peppers in mine.  just to kick it up a bit.

had doughnuts for breakfast.  that’s not so good.  but it’s not fast food and i did go to they Y.  breakfast tomorrow will be a strawberry smoothie.  strawberries were on sale today.  two things for five bucks.  that’s not too bad.  should last most of the week.

dinner tonight has yet to be eaten but i’m not going fast food, i can tell ya that.  i’m probably going to patronize this local bar that’s about to go out of business because no one eats there.  so i’ll try and do my part.

getting ready to munch down on my afternoon snack of cottage cheese and peaches.  i love cottage cheese and peaches.

bad habits

come back like a rash you just can’t shake.

i’ve had a bad couple of weeks.  too much fast food to start.  not near enough time at the gym for second.  too much galavanting for third.

but i’m feeling much better now.

i remember back when i decided that i was going to live a healthier lifestyle and therefore changing my bad eating habits for good eating habits, the first thing i did was eat a good breakfast everyday.  that breakfast included bacon and eggs and wheat toast and tomatoes.

that’s a breakfast i think i could have for the rest of my life and die happy.  fat and happy.  but it’s better than a fast food breakfast any day of the week.  and dammit, i love bacon, eggs, wheat toast and tomatoes.  and part of motivating myself to get up earlier enough to prepare my breakfast and also pack lunch was the bacon and eggs.  i figure i’ll get up for bacon.

and then once i developed the habit of getting up and fixing breakfast, i turned towards weight loss objective and switched to fruit smoothies.

i’m doing the bacon and eggs again just to get back in the habit of preparing my own breakfast and therefore i’m up early enough to pack lunch.  which a packed lunch is a million times better than fast food.  anything is better than fast food.

i got an idea for another dbf t-shirt.  it says fast food kills.  because it does.

actually went to the Y the other day.  that makes once this week.  talk about a habit that’s easy to lose. 

this one is harder than the diet i think.  they go hand in hand really and if you can do one, your mind is always on the other.  kind of like brushing your teeth and flossing.  you should just automatically do the two of those things together.  but i’m like everybody else.  i sometimes don’t floss.

i sometimes don’t go to the gym.  i sometimes eat the wrong stuff. 

i sometimes fall back into bad habits of never going to the gym and always eating the wrong stuff.

it happens.

i’ve been so fat.

really.  i have been a fat, lazy peice of crap the last two weeks. 

been to the y only once.  lots of fast food.  too many, way too many beers.

i suck.

but hey, it’s okay.  one day at a time kids, one day at a time.  today was bad.  i’ll try better tomorrow.

i gotta refocus, man.

the last couple of weeks have been bad.  too much fast food not near enough time at the Y.

i think i got there two days last week.  but that might be pushing it.  i know i was there once.  and really if i think about it, that’s probably it.  and i ate out a bunch.  fast food, too much booze.  ay carumba.

that’s how i got fat.  how i lived most of my life. 

i’m trying to not be fat though.  i’ve had a relapse.  i remember i had those all the time with an ex girlfriend.  you’d think i didn’t learn a thing.

sometimes i think you just gotta purge and get in some old habits for a quick fix.  you just gotta cut them off at some point.  and not get back to living the fat ass life style.  which i’ve been on for about two weeks.

knock it off, fat ass.

sometimes mac donald’s is good.

I didn’t mean to be such a tremendous fat ass.  I mean, I was indeed being a tremendous fat ass when I hit the Mac Donald’s drive-thru at ten thirty at night.  I ordered a big mac meal with a coke and also a chicken sandwich with cheese.

 

That is being a tremendous fat ass.  But thanks to the incompetence of the local Mac Donald’s staff, I got a strawberry milkshake, a large coke, two chicken sandwiches and my big mac meal.

 

And I ate it all.

 

I was so hungry.  The fries didn’t make it home.  They could have pulled me over and charged me with driving under the influence of French fries.

 

I was shoving these things in my mouth by the handful.  I disgusted myself at how ravenous I was about these freaking French fries. 

 

I’m disgusted right now as I finish off the second chicken sandwich.

 

Sometimes ya just gotta eat what you want to eat, what you really feel like eating.  It happens.  Just don’t make a habit of it.  Two fast food meals in a row is plenty.  Any more than that and you’re just being a lazy fat ass.  Too lazy to go to freaking grocery store and get some food.  So you just cruise into some place fat.

 

You just gotta refocus on the overall plan and don’t give up and say screw it.  I already ate Mac Donald’s three times this week.  I might as well just go again.

 

Mac Donald’s is like crack to an addict man.  It just tastes so good.  And once you’ve had a taste you crave nothing but another.

 

Stop, step back and refocus.